I was sitting there, in the dentist chair, half asleep, wondering why on earth I wanted the earliest appointment available, waiting for the verdict. And here it goes: my teeth are in great condition (good news), I should floss every day and not only when I remember (less good news) and my 4 front teeth are very thin and I should do something about it (bad news). Supposedly my teeth are suffering because I drink so many sugary drinks, juice and eat sweets. Don't I know how bad sugar is for my teeth? Am I totally uninformed? I tried to tell the dentist that I never eat or drink any of the above but she looked at me with a disappointed and disapproving look, like I was lying to her. "I am telling the truth" I want to yell. "I have given up sugar! I promise!" But I don't, it's too early.
The dentist suggests we get going with some fillings, after all the next appointment has cancelled and she doesn't want to a. Be bored or b. lose out on the money. I'm going for b. here, but it doesn't really matter. What matters is that I can hear myself agreeing, and sitting back in the chair, without one seconds thought of the consequences. I have no idea, at all, how long this will take or how annoyed I will be at this split second decision. I have no idea how it is to have fillings at the back of your front teeth. No idea at all.
Fast forward to any day after, let's say today, and I can't get myself to stop running my tongue across my teeth. Want to know how it feels? Like I haven't brushed for 10 days. It's this feeling of constant unpleasantness. I can't chew properly, or bite anything with my front teeth, I can't grind my teeth. I can't stop thinking about it. Whatever is going on in the world, I am very occupied with my teeth, thankyouverymuch.
So, the solution? I am still searching. I can remember the dentist mentioning that the fillings will last 10-12 years, so only approximately 11 years, 11 months and 28 days left then. No biggie, right? It's a bit longer than I was hoping for, and I might go crazy before that time is up, but, friends say that I will get used to this. Get used to not chew properly? I think not people, I think not.